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And so it is dark... is it cold? is it hot?... I think my senses are too numb to be able to feel anything.
No matter where I look it is dark and maybe pitch black.
I tried to scream, it hurts, it feels it is ripping apart my inside, however I open my mouth and nothing comes, just a silent scream that noone can hear and hurts so much that it feel I will break.


I look around, is there anyone out there? Why noone looks at me?
Don't look at me with judging eyes, could someone love me?
It hurts now, can someone make it less painful?


The shadows will reach me, the shadows will eat me alive. Because noone cares, Am I alive or dead? I don't know... but I think I am alive because it hurts so much. I don't want to cry by myself, would someone hold me? I cry until I feel asleep and then I wake up alone again.
Can someone stay with me? Can someone smile at me? Can someone love a broken soul like me?

There is this strange feeling inside me, I feel like giving up, however I dream with life.
Somewhere outside, somewhere within this darkness, stars shine, they are waiting, I will see them and follow them. Someone will help her/his hand to me and embrace me, it will make the pain more bearable.


Yes somewhere in this darkness will be with me, will accept my soul as it is, no matter how broken it is, someone will smile and I will learn to love myself with my scars. The stars will shine and there won't be such a darkness, I won't be afraid...